I thought I said goodbye to my camera, however, I found it while I was tidying this morning. It still works but the lid that keeps the battery in place has escaped. Hehe. I can’t say that my focus has been entirely devoted to my blog lately. January has been a weird month in that way. November and December were such hectic months work-wise and that combined with getting into a new job did take a lot of my attention and energy.
So far, January has been the time to rewind and think. To get back on track with what’s important but also to reassess my life. Am I happy where I am? or do I need to change something? Well, I do think I am happy and that I am where I am supposed to be for now.
Going off my medications did not go in my favour this time, unfortunately. I started feeling low and I was scared that my symptoms would get worse so I cancelled my experiment. Truth be told, I am absolutely terrified of being stuck in another depression. It´s been many years since I severely struggled with my mental health, thank god. I guess when you know what it’s like you will do anything to avoid it again. Depressions can take such hold of your life and you don’t really realise you have one before it’s over. So, I haven’t given up on the idea of replacing my medications with the right diet, but I do need more support and expertise. Searching the right knowledge will be a goal for 2020.
Anyways, I just had two days off which has been super lazy but great. I´m just about to head outside because my conscience is telling me to stop watching call the midwives. Hehe
The rest of the week I´m going to work but I´m also determined to go out for a few runs. I also need to find out where I´m going for my birthday in April. I got a few days off and I´m tempted to make a warm and quick escape all by myself.